As a player, you never think about the end.
It's not that they're naïve. Every player that has ever tied a pair of skates or pulled a jersey over their head knows that one day it will all end, whether it's in youth hockey, junior, college, or, if you're lucky and good enough, in the NHL.
Travis Zajac was lucky enough to play in the NHL, for the past 15 years in fact. In that time, he wore the Devils logo on his chest and represented the great state of New Jersey.
"It's an extremely emotional feeling to think about where it all began to where I am right now," Zajac said. "A lot of memories."
There could have been more memories. In fact, Zajac expected there to be. Following last season, he had hopes of returning to New Jersey and playing one more year with the Devils.
But plans, as they often do, change.
"After this past season, I took some time off, and then took some more time off, and then took some more time off. I realized that I didn't have that fire in me to keep going," Zajac told the Devils' official website in an extensive and exclusive interview. "I never fell out of love with the game of hockey itself, but I did fall out of love with what it takes to keep playing - the time, the commitment, the conditioning, the sacrifice."
So after a couple of months, he came to a decision.
It was the same decision that he saw teammates and legendary players make before, like Martin Brodeur and Patrik Elias. These were guys that Zajac had played with and battled alongside, guys that mean so much to the organization.
And now, it is his turn.
“Time flies and here we are,” Zajac said. “And now, the time has come for me to say goodbye.”
Zajac has a luxury not afforded to many, going out on his own terms while still physically and mentally healthy and, relatively, young. It’s a gift not granted to many. But after weighing everything, the decision became clear.
“The ability to be around my family, seeing more of my children, being involved in their sports and school, to spend more time with my lovely wife, to dedicate myself to being a father and a husband, meant more to me now than playing,” he said. “That’s when I knew it was time to step away from the game.
“I feel grateful for the past 15 years, but also excited about the future. I’m ready for the next chapter in my life. I made some great friendships that will last forever; I made some great memories that I’ll cherish for the rest of my life.”
Although he is hanging up his skates, Zajac isn’t hanging up his jersey. He will remain with the organization in an on/off-ice player development and consulting role, while also working to grow the club’s youth hockey efforts. Zajac will still have the Devils logo on his chest nearly two decades after joining the organization.
Or as he put: “I have always been a Devil and I will always be a Devil.”
As a player, you never think about the end. But now that it’s here, it’s hard not to look back at the beginning. Zajac has gone from skating on an outdoor rink in Winnipeg as a child to competing for an NCAA title with North Dakota to competing for the Stanley Cup with the Devils and playing in over 1,000 NHL games.
On top of that, he’s become a husband to his wife, Nicole, and the father of three energetic and wonderful children – son, Zenon, 9, and daughters Veronika, 7, and Anya, 4.
“You can never imagine where your life will take you,” Zajac said. “To be able to play 1,000 games, to play for the New Jersey Devils, growing up, having three kids, being married to my beautiful wife. There are so many great memories.
“I have no other way to describe it other than to say that I feel nothing but blessed.”